Well...
I guess I'm really just here to write and figure out if Bear is a real good blogging website for my need: To write PUBLICALLY! Because I write ALOOOOT and if I can, I will absolutely do anything in my power to avoid writing in private. I will finally just SPEAK PUBLICALLY AND EMBARRASS MYSELF!!
... Kinda like breaking out of a mold. Virginity even, but I'm not that crude. It's truly interesting how people are going backwards in my case to blogging because social media is honestly well, words. Lmao I shouldn't write words, I should be honest; social media is exactly what it was meant to be, utilization of the human condition for social need into an ad-ridden, shallow base-less social experience that makes people feel like they did something meaningful but in reality they did nothing but fill shit with just words.
I mean HEY this is literally just shitty writing but somehow I like to delude myself to thinking I'm better than everyone? Which is funny because when I talk to people in real life, I shrink and genuinely just start apologizing for wasting space and being such a miserable human waste in existance because I'm too shy and introspective to actually be brave enough to talk... eh.
Anyways, I'm clearly just dealing with a friend who was my ex-fling and now back to being friend after a year and a half of not talking to me, and they just texted me this night how they don't wanna be anything more, so clearly I just couldn't bare to continue writing myself alone (AKA journaling my bullshit), but that's probably a bit too personal right now??? I mean none of you really know me... maybe? I would hope not! Anyways, it's near midnight so I'll conclude my first post this: I am going to write more here, expect lots of socialist, agnostic, queer, curious writing about personal stuff, science, history, politics, and etc! ALSO INDIE VIDEO GAMES!!! and good music... HONESTLY ANYTHING AT THIS POINT THAT WON'T LET ME KILL MYSELF LOLOLOLOLOL Bye, and no I'm not having a mental breakdown, you are, I am not apologizing (^u^) (if this shows a weird backslash in my emticon, I apologize I dn't know how to use markdown syntax) (no edits btw)